Staring at the little column to the right of my blog I noticed that I have done 300 posts so far this year. One for each day so far, and it made me realise that there are only 65 days after today until 2016 is over. How did this happen? I can't recall where this year has gone, and how fast it has passed me. I was told your final year in sixth form will be fast but I didn't expect it to be true. I've been so consumed in essays, socialising and dating I just hadn't noticed months fly right past me. I kind of want it to stop, put up a barrier and call time to a halt. Just so I can stand in the second, breathe and enjoy a singular frozen moment.
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One moment, one feeling, one person... can change your whole life. An experience or influential words or even a simple change of perspective can alter everything you've ever known. Do you ever wonder what would happen if things turned out differently? You turned back time and altered a decision, you wish for something better to have happened. but would you give up every little thing that has happened since? Sure there has been tough times, but would you give up the small things you've witnessed just to go back and change one thing that could change everything?
Change everything
Tuesday, 2 August 2016
Everyone keeps talking about that 3AM note
And the 2AM thoughts
The 6AM lack of sleep
And the feels of dread at 5AM
The tiredness that takes over at 1AM
the sharp excitement that strikes you at 12AM.
And the 2AM thoughts
The 6AM lack of sleep
And the feels of dread at 5AM
The tiredness that takes over at 1AM
the sharp excitement that strikes you at 12AM.
The PM'S never matter.
No talks of tea at 7PM
Slow walks at 2PM
Lazy lie in at 3PM.
Certain feelings at 12PM.
Slow walks at 2PM
Lazy lie in at 3PM.
Certain feelings at 12PM.
To heck with your AM
Frig off to the PM
Because my thoughts are all around the clock
Struck of tears at all hours.
Screw you poetic 3AM
Writerly 4AM.
Because my thoughts are all around the clock
Struck of tears at all hours.
Screw you poetic 3AM
Writerly 4AM.
My words aren't a matter of seconds
My feelings don't last a minute
they last a life time
And my words are timeless.
My feelings don't last a minute
they last a life time
And my words are timeless.
3AM
Wednesday, 6 April 2016
- Wednesday's post -
Two tables behind me
I wish it were a thousands miles.
You're not even close
Yet I can feel your breathing.
My nerves are high
But my feelings are low
Your eyes are harsh
But your lips are soft.
Pushed against me you feel so right
Your childish whimpers in my heart
You're frighteningly fierce; reminding me it's wrong
We both know we are probably better apart.
You shadow me as I wonder
I fight the tears; avoiding the plunder
You're distancing yourself further from me
I want to push and pull be rid of you.
You mask my thoughts
Turning the coils
Twisting my heart clock
And winding me up
The ticking my breathing
Number my nerves
The chime my calling
Ringing for you...
Tick tock
Tick tock...
Heart Clock
Thursday, 3 March 2016
I have recently found myself taking Buzzfeed quizes a lot, they're fun and a good way to pass time! I did this particular quiz and I found that it is true, and it's weird that the quizzes conclusion was in fact correct!
The Pictures You Choose Will Reveal A Deep Truth About Yourself
Buzzfeed
Sunday, 7 February 2016
So it started off reluctantly getting out of bed, drinking tea and toast getting ready grabbing my lunch and heading out of the door. Where I'm welcomed with not so warm weather. A short walk to the bus stop, boring bus journey of awkwardness. Chatting with friends whilst walking up to college, once in the building printing essay off and grabbing a Costa Hot chocolate and curren tly sat in tutorial at 09:05.
10:16 Just finished my first hour of Media, it has been good but it is kind of recap due to covering this particular topic in Film.
11:22 Just finished media and going into English. Feeling rather ugh it seems the smallest of things are annoying me, like how one person's head always gets in the way or how that same person is annoying and that same person just naturally annoys me. Lets just say not feeling so happy, today is one of those days.
12:30 English was good, we annotated and analysised some texts which I always enjoy. Currenlyu waiting on one of my closest friends to have lunch. Also diet is going well I'm being very good and resisting temptation!
12:41 I let my anxious and nerves get the better of me so I'm sitting alone eating food outside of my classroom for the next lesson which isn't until half one. What a gripping life you so lead! However my next lessons is a room on the third floor. Not all bad I guess I've got time for some mindless self reflection.
14:40 First hour of Media is done,it is going really well. I'm excited to do my media work going to be doing Misc en Scene, very exciting!
16:48 the one where I was feeling like crap and then made to feel worse. They say strangers don't care how you look then why did I just get verbal abuse about my weight from strangers in a passing car. Thanks for that knock to my self esteem very much appreciated. Feeling like a bundle of mess, I got to my sister's boyfriends house to walk his dog after being shouted at and bawled my eyes out to myself in an empty house, because one of those days. Being told I'm going to die and that I'm fat is degrading because it was shouted as though I didn't know, like I don't know how much I weigh like he doesn't know how much I'm dieting and eager to loose weight. Like I could be home, stuffing my face no instead I'm walking up hills, watching what I eat and trying to loose weight. It's horrible how a stranger can just do that like they know nothing about that person instead they just insult without even thinking about the battle that person has with themselves.
18:01 Feeling a lot better. I've walked the puppy. Now just sitting on the floor as it plays, I'm currently listening to music whilst watching the Bosc waiting for my sister so I can grab my stuff for my interview tomorrow.
21:16 I've eat food, had a lovely bath and sorted everything out for my interview tomorrow. I'm feeling good, way better than I was feeling earlier. I shouldn't let mindless people get to me! I am going to have an early night so this is good bye, tomorrow is a new day and I shall make it a good one and give it my all at my very first interview, wish me luck!
Friday with Lauren
Friday, 16 October 2015
Where is the time going? I swear it was only August five seconds ago. The weeks are swishing by in a fast blur, I've noticed time has a way of passing quicker when you're older. You're so busy and consumed in work and living you simply forget the date changes. Yesterday felt like a Monday, I was pleased to find that today is Friday. The weekend if finally upon us. I have work to do, which we both know will probably be left until Sunday or at the very latest Tuesday. I am keeping on top of things though, I refuse to allow the work load pile up and stress me out. I have a feeling that soon enough it will be Summer again, it is almost frightening how a week has gone within a flash.Gone within a flash
Friday, 2 October 2015
Today was the last official day of this college year, I am now off for the Summer. With the exception of a few meetings and trips of course, but work wise I am done until September. What a relief it is! However, it feels too good to be true. After an exhausting, and changing first year of college it is suddenly Summer, when did that happen?? I am glad though, no more early mornings and having all the time in the world to myself!
I wanted to do a reflection on the year but I think I will leave it until results day, then I can talk about how I did and what happens next!
I wanted to do a reflection on the year but I think I will leave it until results day, then I can talk about how I did and what happens next!
Done for the Summer
Wednesday, 24 June 2015
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