SUNDAY!

So this week has been one of poems, I have been busy but I've been trying to keep up to date. As you know if I miss days I will catch up and post how many I need to on the following days. This is just a chatty post, bits and bobs and whatever else comes to mind. 

I'm 18 in 10 days - I cannot believe it, like at all.

65 days until my first exam, which is film.

116 days until I break up for the Summer.

124 days until pride!

What an exciting time to be alive.

I have been thinking about my future, exciting and scary prospect of life, and well after college in 2017 I think I want to go to University. Due to not doing so well last year I am obviously redoing my first year, which means my friends are going to University this year. I don't mind too much that I will be going later, at least I am on the track to bettering myself and getting where I want to in my own time. I've been looking about for Universities and courses, I kind of always had my heart set on Newcastle Univeristy, it's close to home and their library is amazing.  However, growing I realise I need independence, I need distance from the norm, I need to stand up on my own two feet. So I have been looking at places away from home. I know I want to write, like that is a must. So my English teacher helped me and I found the perfect course and the perfect University - Brighton University - English Literature and Creative Writing. I've always wanted to go to Brighton, it's stunning, alternative and kind of old fashioned, apparently a lot writer's live there. That is where I aiming to go, I understand that there is higher universities on the league table but that kind of doesn't matter. I have to take the place into consideration, I don't want to go to University where I don't like the location. So I am aiming for Brighton, I have to keep looking around as for Ucas you have to put at least three maybe five. Next on the list would be Bolton, admittedly that may just be because I am a sucker for the accents and it's where Danny Jones is from (he turned 30 yesterday, still my favourite, and he's still attractive as ever!) but you know, we will see what happens. 

What's next on the agenda to talk about? Snapchat. I have discovered the new Snapchat filters on my phone, it's an android and I kind of assumed they were only available for iPhone. I was wrong and now I am addicted, my niece adores the doggy one, she loves it. They're fun and personally if I feel a little crap and look a little rough then puking rainbows or drag filters take that worry from me.

I've been playing a lot of Sims lately, I am even considering getting the Sims sign (plumbob) tattooed behind my ear, it would be super cute. 

I am kind of full of cold, which sucks. But I am drinking plenty of tea, and I would say keeping myself warm but I am wearing ridiculous multi-coloured leggings and a white vest. 

I have been thinking about what to post so here is a list of things for you to expect within the next week or couples of weeks

- 17? Reflection on growing up.

-18? Officially an adult.

-Film review - The Green Mile

-Book Review - Fangirl 

-Film Review - Shawshank Redemption

-Outfits of the week - Attempt to look somewhat girlie.

- Favourites of the week - foods, drinks, items, songs and other stuff

Thank you, and I'll see you in tomorrow's post. Recommendations are always welcome, thank you and have a good day.

SUNDAY!

Sunday, 13 March 2016

Catfish

Earlier today I spent a few (many) hours watching MTV's Catfish. I don't usually watch that kind of thing, personally I try and stay away from TV as much as possible, unless it's some of my favourite films.
If you've never watched Catfish it is basically about people who date online, and become attached to people over the internet, however some of the things don't add up so one of the people involved with the relationship usually get in touch with Max and Nev (Catfish hosts) to help them meet this internet person. And well nine times out of time it is someone using pictures which isn't their own, and pretending to be someone they aren't, Basically they get found out and what not. The person pretending is what is called a Catfish.
The whole concept of the Catfish got me thinking, it is almost like creating a new identity, creating an new persona. Someone basically pretending to be someone they aren't, or hiding behind a false pretense.
It took some thinking, and maybe I'm being a little farfetched, but don't we all have a little Catfish in us?
In real life perhaps we are Catfish. Sometimes we ourselves put up a front, emotionally we create a whole new person to live on the outside of our bodies, we create a person or a cover for others to see, we fake to feel and be things for the sake of others, so theoretically isn't that Catfish?
We all have this way we want others to see us, perhaps a way that we don't really see ourselves.
The catfish in the sense of the show I don't agree with, but maybe the real life Catfish I was talking about it sometimes necessary. Our real life catfish within us is our wall, it stops us from getting hurt, it protects us in a way if you will.
When will our Catfish guard go down? Is it when we are trully comfortable with another human, when we can be 100% ourselves. Or will it be when we are happy with who we are, when we can trully feel safe with ourselves.
I ask you to give the whole Catfish topic a think, if it be the show or even our emotional catfish.

Catfish

Wednesday, 28 October 2015

Monday Talk

I've just realized so far I have managed to update my blog every day of October so far. This is like a record for me! I am currently in sixth form, it seems my lessons don't start until an hour and I did all my work yesterday so yes I actually have a free period (this word will forever make me cringe) to myself.
These cold mornings just won't do, I wanted to be imprisoned in my blanket this morning. However, I got up and thankfully my dad handed me a hot cup of tea which was more than helpful at warming me up. Today let's say my appearance is  a little lacking (yes more than usual) so I've done the classical thing by applying some eyeliner on my waterline to make myself look and feel a little better, I say apply to my waterline because I don't know how to apply it elsewhere and those flick things just aren't me I guess. And when  I say apply I mean flapping my hands around either because I've poked myself in the eye or since I haven't wore eye liner in a while I'm more than likely crying.

Today is my second day of dieting, I've started well with brown breaded toast! I'm feeling very determined for this diet, obviously I'm going to be doing work outs and things to further the weight loss. I'm going to do a weekly body check in, and keep track of everything. I bought my lunch this morning, sandwiches, water and a huge fruit salad box thing. I love fruit, pineapple's are my favourite.
I'm glad you guys can join me on this journey, the journey of my writing, my physical and mental health. Together we shall develop as human beings. If you are following or wanting to go on a body journey or weight loss thing, even though I am just starting out on this new diet I have a few tips. I have done diets in the past, which didn't go well. I used to go to gym regularly but with college exams it got busy. But I have picked up a few tips so far.

I will do a full blog post later in the week or maybe even next week about my whole body journey and things like my inspirations, my downfalls, my weight gain and what not.

 I shall leave you with the first tip though;

Tip One; The most important part of your journey (if it be weight loss, or emotional or any kind of journey) is that you must begin it with a positive mindset and maintain that positive mindset. You are why you are on this journey and a little positivity (and determination) can take you a very long way.

Monday Talk

Monday, 12 October 2015

Hello September!

So as it seems the Summer has been whisked away and we are starting out in September! A busy month for most if not all! Realization is beginning dawn in that perhaps the summer was slightly wasted and that preparation should be done for another year in sixth form.

I have been taking some time away from writing and the blog, but I am back and ready to type till my hearts content. I kind of noticed that my blog doesn't really have a theme, I just post things from my daily life, my thoughts and whatever I write or ideas. So what this blog is about well, I'm not sure how to categorize it to be honest!

If you are reading my blog, at some random chance, please share as it would help a lot!

Hello September,

September you have arrived again, usually I dread you and wish there was someway to delay you. However, I have come quite accustomed to your arrival over the years.This time I am quite thrilled by your occurance, I am ready to begin a new term in my life. Turn over a leaf if you will, plus I have become quite in love with Autumn and the beauty it brings with it.

I will make this a good September, I welcome you with open arms and ready to take on any challenge you face me with!

Hello September!

Friday, 4 September 2015

Reality; The Weather?

WASSSSS UPPPPP MY HOMIES??

hmmm maybe not.

Hello, humans I come in peace?

HA SURE I DO.

HI.

The Weather? Such an interesting topic, doesn't it just tickle your fancy. No. WHO EVEN TALKS ABOUT THE WEATHER I MEAN WHATT?? Well apart from weathen men or women then I s'pose that is acceptable.

Seriously is there anyone who has ever had a full on convo about the weather? I MEAN WHAT IS THERE TO TALK ABOUTT EXACTLY?

Norman (idk first name in my head); the weather is lovely!

Brenda (shush is this roleplay); Oh I know it's just luvely, the weather is finaly looking up!

Norman; I know it's been rather grumpy lately, with all that rain!

Brenda; I know it's been terribly honestly I haven't been able to hang my knickers up on the line!

AWKWARD. Where can a weather conversation really go? Norman and Brenda know exactly what I am talking about, their convo is lasting long they will probs end up talking about food nexts and then puppies, the weather won't come up again.

I s'pose when ya really think about it when the weather is concerned it's only ever in small talk, probably because there is small to talk about it.

Now I'm thinkin why on earth have I written an entry on weather? I AM INSANE OR NOT RIGHT IN THE HEAD? Shush don't even think aboout answering it, cheeky sod. I mean writing about weather who even? ONE THING IS TALKIGN ABOUT IT BUT ACTUALLY WRITING, I'm crazy. This isn't even healthy.

What even is weather, I don't think I have stepped out the house since 1990. I WASNT BORN THEN BUT NEVER MIND. I should really go out and enjoy the 'weather' cause I mean NOTHING sounds more appealing than breathing in poisoned polluted air, I mean dream come true right there.

This isn't really a post, but it's something. SOMETHING ON MY MIND, woo you are inside my hollow head mwahahha. You should leave before you're trapped in here forever, trust me pal you wouldn't want that. If there was a possible escape route I WOULD BE GONE!

Yeah so hows the weather?

Reality; The Weather?

Thursday, 23 July 2015