Last day of AS

Please ignore me in this, I look terrible - not my finest hour.

Today was the last of AS, and well I wasn't ready. This year has flown by, and what makes me sad the most is that I have met so many amazing people, and some of them will not be carrying on this journey into the next year. My favourite class of all (film obviously) is practically disbanding, we aren't even getting the same teacher anymore, it makes me sad because like even though we are 20 odd people who just happened to pick a lesson at the start of the year we got pretty close, and these guys are like a second family. Even though some are leaving, I am still happy to hopefully finish the next year with the amazing people that are left.

My exams begin next week and I have never been more afraid. There is no repeat year to depend on, instead my whole Uni thing depends on if I can get the grades I need. I feel confident for English and Film, but Media. Media I am worried about, I will try my best and give it my all, but I cannot help but feel like it won't be good enough. I know my attitude needs to change, I have until Thursday and I am working on it, revising as well as trying to stay positive.

Today was a good last day, filled with enthusiasm and moments. I am getting emotional now, I'll probably be a mess by the end of next year. I am going to have an early night, wake up early tomorrow and let he hardcore media revision begin!

Last day of AS

Friday 13 May 2016

It's Sad

It's sad when you give your everything and all you get in return is hurt and loneliness. It's sad when it turns out you're the only one committed. It's even more sad when this isn't even the first time, nor the second. It gets frighteningly worrying each time, is it me? Am I too much? Am I not good enough? String me along and then push me off the edge, there's only so many edges I can be pushed over. Surely if this is happening time and time again it must mean I'm the problem? Maybe it's time to pack it in. Stop searching and just carry on, stop caring and just be wholeheartedly selfish. That way I'll only ever have to depend on myself for happiness and not those who want to be temporary.  I created a quote and it applies now more than ever; I don't need to find the love of my life; I need to find my love for life!

It's Sad

Wednesday 4 May 2016

Sadness

Sadness.

It fills you completely, it hovers above you like a cloud. It corrupts your thoughts and feelings turning everything sour and negative. It's a feeling we have all felt before maybe some more than others. There is no time limit on it.

It can be caused by many different things, it could be because the loss of someone, maybe heartbreak or an event that has happened. It could occur because of bullying, anything can cause it. Maybe sometimes there isn't a reason for it, maybe there just isn't anything to be about happy about.

Sadness. It could lead to many things, like most things it can lead to bad things. It could leave you lonely, sadness could make you push everyone away. It could force you to do things you wouldn't normally do. It can lead to depression. It can lead to self harm.

It doesn't last forever, because after a storm there is always sun. Sadness is a milestone you just got to get back up from it and show sadness you are stronger. But being sad doesn't make you weak remember that you just got to get over it, life goes on!

I could have picked a million other feelings but I thought no this one because I think sadness is a common feeling and everyone has felt it at some point and perhaps people don't realize how sadness can effect people.

Next time you see someone sad, don't kick them while they're down instead offer a shoulder or a small talk it could make a difference. And if you're currently filled with sadness trust me it won't last forever, and there is always someone you can talk to!

Sadness

Thursday 13 August 2015

Inside Out (Movie Review)

Movie Picture - I don't own this image

The moment I first saw the trailer I was dying to watch this, my inner child begged me! So I gave in and wow.

IMDB DETAILS;

After young Riley is uprooted from her Midwest life and moved to San Francisco, her emotions - Joy, Fear, Anger, Disgust and Sadness - conflict on how best to navigate a new city, house, and school.

Directors:

 Pete Docter, Ronaldo Del Carmen

Writers:

 Pete Docter (story), Ronaldo Del Carmen (story) (as Ronnie del Carmen) ,

Stars:

 Amy Poehler, Bill Hader, Lewis Black

It was so good. Faultless to say at the least. Watching the journey of emotions was quite the visual adventure! I have to say that it made me cry, yeah I sob a lot!

It was really good to watch, fun and educational. Being seventeen years old I can say that it doesn't matter what age you will love it! It was a good movie, not what I was expecting. It's quite deep if you think about it, certain aspects really open your eyes and you really get thinking about certain emotions and different stages you go through.

I recommend the movie as always, plus I hope there is another one!!

Inside Out (Movie Review)

Monday 13 July 2015