Right for me

-inspired response to Justin Bieber's Love Yourself-

I love you, but I love me more. This isn't me justifying myself I'm just letting you know. I'm confident and alone; I don't need you no more. Stay out of my texts, go on go back to your ex. I loved you, but I don't no more.  All the times you made me feel small, fool I'm not going to let you make me feel low. I'm not holding onto you, you can't get through these walls. I love you, but I love me more. I ain't crying no more, I'm stronger than the girl you used to know. Now look away and walk out that door, now I know what's right for me.

Right for me

Sunday 6 November 2016

Your Muse

What if the moment that hurt us the most didn't happen? Would we living in consistent happiness or will fate have his way and tear us a part? Maybe in another life we were destined or maybe in another life we are better for not having met at all. I think about you, more than I care to admit. You're the one who got away, the person who can only trully hold my heart. I can't replace you with a million one night stands, I should have told you that I loved you when I had the chance, instead a blew it all away. How was I to know I had pushed you for one final last time? I have to face it now, I'm no longer your muse. We spent Summers chasing fireflies, telling our parents lies of our whereabouts. It was us against the world, hand in hand, on the road you and your guitar. The one that got away.

Your Muse

Saturday 5 November 2016

Passion

Have you ever needed someone, not emotionally but physically. You want their skin against yours, against the wall, on the coffee table, anywhere you can. Have them holding onto you, breathing in your ear. 
You see that someone and you can already see their clothes laying on your floor. From the counter to the stove, anywhere it doesn't matter. It's not just sex, it's making love. Love does this, it's much more than affection it's passion.

Passion

Friday 4 November 2016

Fling

This  thing? What do you mean you're in love? It was a little fling. I told you not to get attached, I can't go through this again. We are just hooking up, and now you're going to fuck things up? We had fun but I can't go on. Commitment just ain't my song.
Back off, stop calling my phone non stop. We happened once maybe twice, okay maybe three times. The sex was good but that's simply enough. You think we are something that we are not, mate it simply needs to stop. Feelings are something I can't do, so trust me when I'm ending this it's best for you.

Fling

Thursday 3 November 2016

QOTW

Forgive others not because they deserve forgiveness,  but because you deserve peace 

-Unknown

QOTW

Thursday 22 September 2016

Quote of the week

"I'm working on myself, for myself, by myself."  -Unknown Author 

Quote of the week

Friday 17 June 2016

Numb

-Inspired by a poem I read a couple of year back, I forgot the author but the words always stuck with me-

Whenever any problem occurs  she would retreat to the bathroom, this time ahe washed in her thoughts. As she waited for her hair mask she sat with the razor as if it was a long lost friend, she watched its shadow cast over where they used to play, She was so tempted, and it sounds stupid it does. She's  second best in everything that she did, everything and it fucking sucks. She feels numb, and it's stupid because she shouldn't feel like this. She didn't cut, but she wanted to. She knows not to cut, ahe already feels numb the same way she would if she had cut. She's  tired of being second best, with relationships,  in work and just everything. At least to the razor it was always her skin that came first, the pain second and then the blood first. Numb, she feels numb. Constantly, sometimes it's prominent other time it hides in between her laugh. Numbness.

Numb

Wednesday 9 March 2016

Half term

This week has been pretty amazing for the last week, jammed pack with work but I enjoyed it. I've always enjoyed the week before being off, it's like finalising things, meeting deadlines and throwing out the rubbish bits of the term. It is only half term but it's been a short but pleasant one.  Things couldn't be better for me right now (Unless I was to publish a book or meet Danny Jones, but that's unlikely.).  Lately, I have been finding so many inspirations around me, like I have taken my city from granted; and how I love travelling on buses and watching surroundings change.
Also, I have something quite exciting to share, I have a new idea for a story, I am really passionate about this idea. In English we are studying Charles' Dickens Great Expectations, (spoiler if you haven't read the novel) there are convicts in the novel who play a very important role. With obviously studying the text we have to study the society at the time the novel is set and written. We looked more into convicts and how they were shipped off to Australia and weren't allowed to return, well this sparked my inspiration. I want to work on a convict novel, set in the times of shipping prisoners off, maybe even have an old school pirate kind of thing going on. I am playing around with titles and so far maybe calling it 'Captured'. This will obviously take time, I have to carry out research and not dive in this with eyes closed! Since this is my blog and my favourite place to write I want to make it exclusive here. So after I've written a chapter (and edited it) I want to post it here or at least post it somewhere else and link it here. Due to the nature of how long chapters take and what not, I am hoping maybe posting once a month. I think it's a good idea, again this is inspired by Dickens. He used to release his stories in parts in newspapers and people would have to wait for the next part, I find this quite lovely.
As you may have noticed I have been doing quote of the week, which is pulled from my weekly planner. I wrote those quotes in my weekly planner for each week and well I want to share the motivational positivity.
I am having nine days off, admittedly I have to spend some time work to do but I will definitely be writing more and reading more! I aim to check off at least one of my books from my reading wishlist as well as update at least one of my stories on Wattpad!
P.S Hello to new readers who may recently found my blog; it's really appreciated!

Half term

Friday 12 February 2016

Inspiration Music

Sometimes as a writer you get stuck, or you suddenly get a block, and of course they really suck. No one likes it, if anything we are writers dread it. You will do almost anything to get in the writing zone and stay in the writing, nothing is better than having your head and heart into your writing.

Music can help, and personally I have my own music and songs that I listen to to help get in the zone and to help during the zone. Any lyric can spark a thought and before you know it you've wrote a full chapter and back into the writing game.

Each story I have, I generally have a different playlist for each, and I would like to share them with you. Some songs don't really go into a playlist but they really help me think about things and spark new ideas.

Songs help me, generally because my phone could be on shuffle and the simples lyric on meaning behing the song can generate a chapter idea or contribute to one. So far I have nine works posted, and I have a playlist or song type for each. Some songs even remind me of books I have already wrote and completed.

Falling For The Geek

You Me At Six - Underdog

Crazy Town - Drowning

Ugly Kid Joe  - Everything About You

Fountains Of Wayne - Stacey's Mom

Escape The Fate - Situations

Parachute - Kiss Me Slowly

Hey Monday - How You Love Me Now

Hinder - Lips Of An Angel

James Blunt - You're Beautiful (Punk Rock Version)

Gotye - Somebody That I Used To Know

Pat Benatar - Hit Me With Your Best Shot

We Are The In Crowd -  For The Win

Hoobastank - The Reason

All Time Low - Time-Bomb

Papa Roach - Last Resort

Miley Cyrus - Stay

Avril Lavigne - I'm With You

Evanescene - The Last Song I'm Wasting On You

Glee Cast - I'm Having Your Baby

The Sex Pistols - Liar

Billy Idol - White Wedding

She's Just Like Satan, But Sexier!

Avril Lavigne - How You Remind Me

Nickelback - How You Remind Me

Avril Lavigne - Girlfriend

Christina Aguilera - Candyman

Paramore - Fences

Paramore - Crush Crush Crush

Paramore - Misery Business

Hoodie Allen - Two Lips

Hoodie Allen - Casanova

Good Charlotte - Silver Screen Romance

Slash and Myles - Sweet O Child Of Mine

Panic At The Disco - Teen Hearts

The 1975 - Sex

The 1975 - Girls

Crazytown - Butterfly

Avril Lavigne - Hot

Chace Everest - Bad Things

Me and my Geek

B.O.B Ft Hayley Williams - Airplanes

Smash Mouth - Believer

Smash Mouth - All Stars

Justin Bieber - Fall

Avril Lavigne - My Happy Ending

One Direction - One Thing

Taylor Swift - Better Than Revenge

Taylor Swift - The Story Of Us

Taylor Swift - White Horse

Boyce Avenue - Teenage Dream

Billy Idol - Rebel Yell

Miley Cyrus - Can't Be Tamed

Inspiration Music

Monday 3 August 2015