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I am at that awkward body size. I just manage to fit into straight size clothes but too small to properly fit into plus size clothing. A little information about myself and my body, I don’t usually freely share this information but I figure it gives context on what I’m dealing with. My chest is 36/38 B/C, a comfortable size. It changes depending on the time of the month and where I’m buying underwear from.  I usually dress between the sizes 16 and 18 (UK size, in the US this would size 14 and size 16 I think) depending on the store. Unless it’s tshirts then I buy a couple sizes bigger just for that baggy look.


 By technical term I am plus size (which I don’t mind) but it’s hard to shop plus size because in a lot of shops plus size starts at the size or two above mine.  For example Forever 21 online in straight size go to th  size unde  mine but thei  plus size starts the size above... a girl just can’t win. I call my size the awkward size, it’s not a bad thing it just means when I find a shop that has my sizes I usually stick to it. Stick to what you know right? 
I am fully aware I can change my size, if you have a problem fix it etc. But that takes time, you know this I know this. I won’t be this size forever. It’s a working progress but right now I have to dress the body I have and not for the body that I want. 


Call me a basic but my favourite clothing store is Primark.  The prices are good and even the quality has been stepped up in recent years. I know some people get a bit judgemental about Primark but I know how their sizes work. What fits my body and what doesn’t. I have to say that my favourite thing about Primark is that the clothes are available for all sizes. You can get the same top in sizes 6 up to 22. The same top! I know this seems dumb but when it comes to plus size clothes companies change the type of clothing, usually floral print (don’t get me started on this, a rant for a later date) they  create new items which is cool but really what we plus size girls want is the same clothes you offer for straight sizes! We  just want the same cute designs and things but just our sizes, surely that’s not too much to ask?? Primark is a gem for this plus their Harry Potter merch is life, I’ve put so much money into buying merchandise from their it’s unbelievable!As much as I adore Primark, I’ve been wanting to broaden my horizons. I am becoming more confident with my body and quite frankly just want more clothes. For a while now I’ve been watching YouTubers do Plus size hauls, I just love seeing people’s clothing choices and seeing different items fit different sizes. I love seeing women of all shapes and sizes looking cute and rocking all kinds of outfits without a care in the world. You girls are my inspiration! 

Watching these types of videos allow me to find clothing inspiration, new things to possibly try out. Only being an awkward size I’ve been struggling to find YouTubers with a similar body type to my own. I’m aware every body is different and that’s great, it’s just I have no clue what these clothes would look like on me. Which is a struggle when online shopping to begin with. A lot of the plus size clothing stores are online, which is great but fittings can be strange.
Different shops run different sizes. For example, in Primark  I usually fit into a large whereas I recently discovered I fit into an H&M medium. Naturally, I was over the moon with this discovery. Confident level boost +10.
I am looking for some recommendations, on YouTubersnas well as clothing brands.  I am maybe contemplating trying to do a ‘will it fit?’ series. Maybe here on my blog, write it up or video it or something. Just to perhaps help other girls like myself who are also at that ‘awkward’ size.  Would a ‘Will it fit?’ series be a good idea? I’m also broadening my horizons on jeans, so please comment some places I can try and types of jeans you would personally recommend!! 

Plus size?

Monday, 18 June 2018


This was the outfit I wore on Thursday. My favourite outfit of this week. Black is very slimming, and I felt confident and generally really good about myself!

Holterneck; Primark - I can't remember how much I think it was £3-£6 not too sure though.
High Waist Skinny Jeans; Primark £13 - these are my favourite jeans of all time. I discovered these a little over month ago and I already have several pairs of them, also they make your ass look so good!

Also I am a Primark girl, I haven't expanded to other women's clothes shops yet, I just stick to what I know.





This is my favourite selfie, Demi did my makeup and well as always I loved it. I like to think I went from a 3 to a solid 7. Also my hair looked pretty good too, due to lighting it looks slightly ginger in this picture but I don't mind too much.

I don't know much about the makeup I am wearing, I do know the foundation is No.7 beautifully matte.

Demi is my go to person for make up, whenever we are together she does it. I like it because she knows how to make certain features more prominent, it makes me feel more confident and girlie. It's just a good feeling!

Thank you for reading today's blog, see you tomorrow!! -Lauren

Outfit of the Week

Sunday, 29 May 2016

After months of being a hermit I'm heading out tonight, bowling with the ladies and drinks. It got me thinking of course,  we have certain measures to take like wearing heels (that make our feet ache) and wearing a push up bra (which grips your sides and you can't breathe) the make up preparations just to look almost flawless for the many selfies to come. Then there's the actual saving the money for the night out, not lavishing out beforehand and skipping lunches. Only for at the end of the night to be a mess in your knickers in your best friends bed. I personally think the getting ready part is exciting, watching myself transform from a 2 to a strong 8. And then when you're with the girls it's like you haven't been a part at all, and the laughter rolls off your tongues. Memories are important and creating them is the best part. We do a lot of preparation to have fun, when essentially you could be in in jeans and tshirts and still have the same amount of fun. I believe it's all about the glamour making ourselves look the best we can. Plus I mean the glamour does help when you're trying to look older...

Girls' Night Out

Friday, 5 February 2016

Like everyone else, I am human. Not one of us is superhuman, even though sometimes I do wish I had the abilities of batman, but we can't always get what we wish for. Today I decided I would write about insecurities, it is personal and serious, everyone has them or has had them at some point in their life.
Disclaimer -  this isn't me posting for attention, that is not my aim here, I am just posting personal experiences and feelings, I hopefully shed light onto the whole thing. I don't usually share this kind of thing.
Firstly, I feel as though I've always been self-conscious, I know from a young age I have been very aware of my weight, people pointing it out or thinking it's okay to be mean about things.  And well as growing up and developing it seems one of my most insecurities is my weight, my stomach, my arms and thighs especially. I have always been closely aware of my body.
I can usually go through the day without stressing or being too overly conscious about these things, unless of course someone else mentions them. However, I have been feeling inadequate lately. I have been feeling very self-conscious and aware of my body. Usually, when this happens (which is often) I tear myself a part.
I am trying to improve myself, I want to love me for me, and that is so damn hard. I am on this journey and some days I can be like 'I'm confident, I rock and I'm fabulous' but others  I am the complete opposite. It's like one step forward and two steps backward. Sitting around pulling at my insecurities isn't helping me, I know that of course.
Instead of hating on the parts of me I don't like I'm trying to concentrate on the things I do like. I can't ignore my insecurities, but I am trying to improve them, for instance I'm beginning to eat healthier, I'm only drinking water, it is a start. Before I get to the ideal me, I have to learn to love myself along the way.
Sometimes I just wish it was easy, I wish the change would come quicker, in a world obsessed with looks what chance do I have?
I want to love myself, for me. I want to love everything about me, I want to be proud instead of shying away scared to even show some flesh!

Insecure

Saturday, 23 January 2016