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Please ignore me in this, I look terrible - not my finest hour.
Today was the last of AS, and well I wasn't ready. This year has flown by, and what makes me sad the most is that I have met so many amazing people, and some of them will not be carrying on this journey into the next year. My favourite class of all (film obviously) is practically disbanding, we aren't even getting the same teacher anymore, it makes me sad because like even though we are 20 odd people who just happened to pick a lesson at the start of the year we got pretty close, and these guys are like a second family. Even though some are leaving, I am still happy to hopefully finish the next year with the amazing people that are left.

My exams begin next week and I have never been more afraid. There is no repeat year to depend on, instead my whole Uni thing depends on if I can get the grades I need. I feel confident for English and Film, but Media. Media I am worried about, I will try my best and give it my all, but I cannot help but feel like it won't be good enough. I know my attitude needs to change, I have until Thursday and I am working on it, revising as well as trying to stay positive.

Today was a good last day, filled with enthusiasm and moments. I am getting emotional now, I'll probably be a mess by the end of next year. I am going to have an early night, wake up early tomorrow and let he hardcore media revision begin!

Last day of AS

Friday 13 May 2016

I'm a little late with this, I shall post the hello December tomorrow!

My last day of November was amazing, I'm not going to lie it was the best day I've had in a long time! Mondays are naturally my favourite day, so I started my Monday off with making cute Christmas edits and eating a hella lot of Pineapple, which always makes me happy. I then had Film Studies, I'm always enthusiastic with Film. I got put into a group and together we have to make a trailer, and I am so excited. My group is good, we all get on and the ideas we all came up with together makes me feel hopeful for our production.
Even an hour long tutorial session was good, we talked about aids and well I definitely felt more educated afterwards. Lunch is where my luck picked up (literally) so I brought packed lunch and I went with my friend to get her lunch from the Deli. On the way back up to college I literally found a tenner on the road, it was soaked but still lucky. Naturally I look around which no one was around so I couldn't even ask if it belonged to someone, I did however half it with my friend because that's the rule, you have your findings with the person you're with. Lunch was good, I had my favourite sandwiches' and what not.
Media came along after lunch, it was a good lesson. I socialized and we were introduced to the coursework which I can't help but feel excited about. I was going to do film production for it but I decided that since I will be filming for my film coursework it is best to not over do it. I'm going to do a magazine, I'm pretty good with Photoshop plus I possibly want to go into magazine journalism so how could I not jump at this opportunity?
English came along, it was a feedback lesson where we got our initial assessments back. Naturally I was feeling nervous, especially since my recent talk with my tutor about improving my grades. I was shocked when I saw the grade on the front 'B+' I was over the moon, I mean on my last one I got a 'C' which I am proud of but this time I was pretty close to an A. I think it's generally because I'm stronger with creative writing and comparison than anything else. So getting feedback was good, and my teacher enjoyed what I had written. I was having doubts about my capabilities recently in English, but what I've learned is that I just need a little confidence, put the work in and things can only get better. After the lesson I was held back, which made me feel bad I was scared in case she was going to tell me she accidently graded me wrong. I was wrong, she wanted to tell me well done and that out of all the classes she teaches this subject to I got the highest out of all. I'm not boasting, really I was shocked. It felt good to just be doing better than I was, I'm improving and I have hope for this year. However, I am afraid I fall behind or I do crap in the next assessment. I need to maintain this level of work, and in order to do that I need to revise as much. My mocks are in January so I'm going to revise for them.
When I got home my parents were happy to hear my news, they even ordered take out (winning) of course my favourite Kebab Pizza but they even ordered with stuffed crust. I watched some movies and had a chilled night. For the last day of November I did pretty alright, also it was DOUGIE POYNTER'S BIRTHDAY!!
November was quite rocky overall, like a rollercoaster but it's an adventure. December? BRING IT ON!

Goodbye Novemeber

Tuesday 1 December 2015

I'm all about change lately, first I will explain why and the build up to my most recent change. On the 10th of September I started year 13 in sixth form, and well between me and you it didn't go well. There was talk of English Lit being stopped, and well I was told to think of another option. I was devastated, English is my passion as you guys know. 
So Friday came along, my tutor had a meeting to find out the deal and English had definitely been stopped. Which was annoying as I had already done my first year, only to be told I can longer continue it. Disheartening, I basically let myself be talked into another subject. Which I was told to produce work for over the weekend (I worked my ass off) so Monday comes along and I realize that I miss English, genuinely miss it but I just went on. This new subject teacher basically told me all the work I did over the weekend wasn't what she wanted and told me to produce something else for the following day. Can you imagine how annoyed I felt. 
I did spend the night drawing and what not, and fast forward to this morning. Where I realized the only reason I went to college was for English, and it is something I want to do, and I had a breakdown, to be honest I felt let down. If I had known this was going to happen I would have went to a completely different college. I had enough, and I know English is my passion and I shouldn't have to be forced not to pursue it. My parents were being so supportive, my mother made me take the day off she rang up telling them how much the college let me down especially since I had been promised at the end of last year that there will be an English course to return to. 
My parents suggested that I looked for a new college, I was a little wary I mean this is packing my whole life up I have known my sixth form for 6 years now (due to is being a part of my high school) my mam told me to look online and what not. I found a college that interested in me,the courses seemed appealing but being my nervous self I had concerns. My parents talked me into calling the college and seeing what the deal is, I asked if it was possible to attend for one subject and carry on my other two with my original sixth form, which turned out to not be an option. However, they got me thinking and they suggested I changed sixth form completely and I was welcome to come in for a meeting. 
I had a change of heart, I found myself feeling excited so I looked into the courses and was more than happy. They offered much more than my last, plus they offer a course I originally wanted to do which was English Lit and Lang. I felt ready to move on with my old sixth form, and I was eager for my possible new one. So I went to the meeting only to fall in love with the whole sixth form, the vibes were amazing, and I enrolled immediately. I have never felt so ready and willing for change ever in my life.I know it means not seeing my best friends as much as I do but I have  to do what is best for me. For once I wasn't going to allow my future to be in someone elses hands.Today I took control and did what was best for me. I will be restarting my AS levels, my subjects are now English Lit&Lang, Media Studies and Film Studies. Tomorrow is my first day and I am excited and ready to take control.

Never stop chasing your passion, whatever you do make sure you stay true to yourself

Best For Me

Tuesday 15 September 2015