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Crazy I, but only for you
the hardest task I would do
if it chased away your blue
your smile is one of few
things I enjoy too. 

Crazy I

Monday 5 December 2016

I get caught up thinking about some or the 'crazy' things I've done, or possibly will do. The possible consequences or effects or how it makes me look takes over my mind. It wasn't until today a friend said to me "You're eighteen have fun you can do all this crazy shit it's good" and she was right. I am eighteen, it's the time in my life where I'm allowed to be outrageous and do stupid shit like, if not now when? When I have  a mortgage to pay and spend most of my time working? It will be too late then. Sure this year is important and I need make sure I get the grades and be the best me I can, but that doesn't mean I can't have fun and do crazy shit like getting drunk, snogging guys the first time I meet them or getting little tattoos which I adore. Life is busy and hectic, and sure still being in the education system can be time consuming but don't forget to take a little time out, I'm not saying neglect responsibility but don't forget to live a little, laugh we are young, now is the time to do dumb shit and make memories.

Make Memories

Thursday 8 September 2016

I am never really living in the present. Mainly because I am too busy living in my head. I'm constantly thinking, imagining and having countless thoughts about random things. So many different things that go inside of my head, it takes from the present moment, it takes away my concentration however it is entertaining. My head is my little escape, all the little scenarios and story lines I create. I live them all inside of my head.

12/10/2015  I have been in and out of two different worlds within my head, one where I'm this Youtuber. I'm quite popular, and currently in a 'relationship' with Joshuadtv (fully aware of his marital status but this is imaginary). I'm from England but moved to America to live with him, I am also about twenty two in this scenario. Currently in a three year relationship but it seems he is having some trust issues, and well it turns out he loves me but he is in love with Colleen (YES) So anyways I find out  they have been seeing each other so I leave Josh to stay with Sawyer and his girlfriend, where I'm breaking down and basically heavily drinking with Sawyer whilst doing video collabs. That's all I'm up to. I feel like this would make a really good fanfiction, maybe...

I like these little 'movies' in my head, it's great however sometimes I can stupidly get emotionally attached, yes this not real scenerios can effect my mood and emotions. It's quite bad but my imagination worth going to this extent over.

15/10/2015 - Today's thoughts have been wild, I have been the new girl who is a smartass, slightly cocky and meets her male opposite. However he spends most of his time sleeping with air head girls, but his attitude changes, and it's almost like a game between us. But there is obvious attraction and we don't bother hiding or denying it.

AM I CRAZY?

Living in my head

Thursday 15 October 2015