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 Hello!

I know it's been a little while, but I wanted to tell you all about my first writing getaway from the end of June till the beginning of July. Surprise surprise, I visited Brighton on my own with full intentions to write my heart out! Spoiler: I did just that! Before we get into the details of what I've been writing, let's talk about my trip preparation. 

Prior to this trip, I hadn't spent much time writing creatively for a while. It had been months since I last sat down and wrote something for myself that wasn't work-related. Quite frankly, I was ready to get back into the swing of things and this was the perfect way to do so.

If you've been around here a while, you'll know that I went to University down in Brighton a few years ago. I loved living there and had to go back for inspiration. I booked myself a week off work and down the country I went. As much as I love Brighton, I didn't want to go down there without a plan and start writing on a blank page. So, to make sure I used my writing time wisely, I decided that I'd be writing a new story. 

I had the idea of my new story idea swimming around in my head for a while, so in the weeks leading up to my journey, I planned. By planned I mean:

  • Created a Spotify playlist capturing the stories vibe
  • Created a Pinterest board to get a feel for the story
  • Character preparation
  • Written an outline of what I wanted the story to achieve
And with these things, I packed my iPad and spent most of my time writing in different cafes across Brighton. I made a great start on the story, but most importantly, I found that spark to write again! I even found myself writing poetry whilst sitting on the pebbles watching the sea. It's amazing what a change in scenery can do for the soul.

I started writing my new project, a witchy lesbian novel, and I'm still writing it weeks later. I know writing takes time. I'm just surprised I haven't bounced to a different project yet! It feels good to have that writing spark back. So, if you're a writer and looking for a  sign to take yourself on a writing retreat, this is it! 

I created a little reel of my trip that you can check out on my Instagram. The trip itself was needed, not only to refresh my writing spark, but I found myself spending some much-needed quality time with myself. I'm already planning my next one! 

My First Writing Getaway

Wednesday, 17 August 2022

As of a couple of days ago, I handed in my last bit of Uni work, and I have now finished my degree! Three emotional years, it’s been such a wild ride. For the past three years, I have been studying English Literature and Creative Writing at the University of Brighton.  I have learned so much in the space of three years, things about my degree and many things about myself. I have met so many amazing people, new friends and I have experienced so many new things. University has been the best time of my life so far, granted it has not been easy. At times I just wanted to give up, sometimes I felt like I would rather be anywhere else. The friends I had made in Brighton have really kept me going, and have quite frankly kept me sane.  From Maccies drives with my number one to Ramen nights' with a housemate. Everyone I have met has really contributed to my time in Brighton. There has been a lot of laughter and a lot of tears. Yesterday, I celebrated with a small get-together (following lockdown rules) and popped a few bottles of champagne. I never had champagne before and can confirm it does not taste so great, two bottles almost to myself did get me a little tipsy. It was a lovely celebration with family when it all calmed down and I had a moment to myself I felt emotional. It finally hit me that I have achieved something so great and now it is all over. I am sad that we could not end the year with a massive celebration due to Covid-19 but we will all see each other again at our graduation ceremony in February.  A chapter of my life has ended and now it is time for my next adventure, a new chapter awaits me!

Class of 2020

Sunday, 14 June 2020

Before we hit into the '20s (the decade I have been excited for) I want to reflect on the decade we are leaving behind. The most important decade of my life so much has happened I have gone from child all way through my teens and to adulthood. I have met so many amazing people in this decade, people I know who will be my life long best friends, new family members - two nieces and a nephew as well as two step-nephews and a step-niece. My best friend Kara was born in 2014 and we have been inseparable since. I can proudly say I have friends in each direction o
f the UK and even some abroad.
This decade has not been easy, I have faced grief like I have never felt before. I have loved and lost, but I am recovering. I started high school and finished high school. Did the sixth form thing, for three years instead of two. I flew the nest and moved from Newcastle to Brighton. I came out to my family and friends and learned that whatever or whoever you like does not define you. I learned to value home and family more, and I learned to stand on my own two feet.  I have shed many (and I mean many) tears but I have also laughed so much. Some of my best memories have been during this decade, I travelled to Holland, Spain and Egypt. I visited places not so far from home: Edinburgh, Brighton, London, Manchester, Devon and Cornwall. 
I have learned more about myself, I've watched myself change and become someone a younger me would look up to. I have found the love of writing during this decade, I created this blog. I made a Sims Gaming YouTube. I have found love in fictional worlds. I have learned that life is a journey and that sometimes it takes people a little longer to get where they are going. Life is not a race, it is about focusing on yourself and watching where you're going, and everyone else around you you should be supportive of their journey.
I would do my usual thing and make resolutions for the following year but this time I don't want to do that. I want to make promises to myself. Promises to love myself, in whatever stage my body is at. I promise to my kinder to myself. I promise to have more fun, more risks and things to look forward to. If this decade has taught me anything it is that my mental health is just as important as my physical health, I promise to take care of my thoughts and to know when enough is enough. This decade I have met my limits and that wasn't always fun. But this decade I promise to take care, even if it is in the smallest of things.
I hope you reading this, you have an amazing 2020. Party like Gatsby or chill alone in your own swamp like Shrek. Do what is good for you. Happy New Year. 

The end of a Decade

Tuesday, 31 December 2019

Top Ten: I Want To Do Down South

I have been down in Brighton for just over two years now, and I believe this will probably be my last year. I plan on moving further up North, but I want to make the most of my time down here whilst I live down here. I already checked a couple of things off my list such as see Wicked, visit Cornwall and London.
I guess this is more a reminder for myself, for me to look back on and say hey I achieved all of the things I wanted to do down here. The list is in no particular order, although number 1 is my ultimate goal.

1) Visit Harry Potter Studios in London
2)  See my first Drag Show/Performance
3) Go on the Eurostar
4) Visit Marwell Zoo
5) See Stonehenge
6) Visit the UK's biggest Primark in Birmingham
7) Go on the i360
8) Visit the Upside Down house
9) See Hamilton in London
10) Visit Shrek Adventure

If you think I have missed any cool things off, or you have recommendations please comment below so I can add them to my list!!

Top Ten Things: I Want To Do Down South

Monday, 28 October 2019


A drink in my hand, my snow up against the burning sand...


No sadly, this isn't a rendition of Frozen's song 'Summer' although it is a Disney banger! I have realised between poetry and book reviews I haven't really posted 'other' content on here. This is just a catch up I guess, talking about the Summer and what I have planned, what I have been doing and what the future holds.
Since finishing the Second year of University in May, so far I have been home to Newcastle for a little while and then returned to Brighton to work full time. I don't have a holiday planned this year, but I do plan on visiting some places within the UK. Just something to look forward to. I will be spending the majority of my time in Brighton, which I am excited about. 
I set a Summer goal of reading 15 books, so far I have only managed 2 - tragic but I have just restarted Harry Potter so those numbers will rise. Reading again for pleasure feels so good again, for a while I didn't want to read. I guess when your degree is surrounded by reading books, and a lot of the time ones you don't want to read, you b
ecome reluctant to read in your spare time. So, the reason I set a Summer reading goal is to hopefully fall back in love with reading.  A new book review will be posted within the next few days, so keep an eye out for that.
So far, Summer has been quite spontaneous. I have been to the cinema a few times, I went to see Avengers End Game (twice),  Alladin, Toy Story 4 (twice) and I am seeing Spiderman soon too.  and seen quite a few of my friends. It has been great, I have really been trying this work/social balance. I have also been attending the gym, which has been helping me mentally as well as physically. I have been investing in new gym gear, and I am living for it- NIKE YOU ABSOLUTE BABE. I am really trying my best to feel good about myself, in all ways possible. I am getting there, this Summer is definitely one of self-care. A much-needed addition to my life.
I will be visiting Newcastle near the end of Summer, once I have moved into the new house. When I get back I will be seeing Danny Jones live.
The big thing I wanted to talk about was... SIMS. If you've been around on my blog a while now you will know how much I adore the Sims. And I have recently just collected all the packs for Sims 4, and let me tell you the future is bright. I will be Simming more... on more than one platform. It is early days but it is a new project I will be working on.
The blog here is a due a revamp, not sure when this will take place but soon! I have been going through my social media and just tweaking things, if you follow my Instagram you will have noticed a few changes, especially with my highlights. If you don't follow my Instagram search for me WritingMyHeart! 

What are your Summer plans?

Summer in Brighton

Friday, 12 July 2019

Thank you for reading!

Who?

Friday, 14 June 2019

I submitted my final deadline, of my second year at University, approximately a week or so ago.
What a relief! I did an end of year post last year and its only natural I had to this year too! I hold my hands up to this, but damn has this year been hard. Nothing on the first year of Uni. Sorry to scare all you first years out there, please enjoy first year whilst you can.
Something weird has happened this year, not entirely sure what though. I have worked 100% harder like I have put so much more effort into my work but I cannot help but feel I haven't got my shit together. I keep leaving everything to last minute, which I didn't really do last year, and it is driving me insane.
 Realistically, I know it doesn't help working whilst doing my degree but a girl has got to do what a girl has got to do. I finished the second year, I suppose that counts for something. I want to wish for a better third year, and tell you I'll get my shit together over Summer, but will I? I will try but I know I'll be just as stressed this time next year.
That aside, we have to celebrate getting through it. I am super proud of all my fellow students and friends, you guys are amazing. I hope we all have the well-deserved Summer we need!
A week into summer, and I have no clue what to do with my time. It's weird not feeling guilty about doing things, I am so used to that nagging feeling in the back of my head telling me to do work. I am currently on a two-week break from work too, I am visiting home and enjoying long baths again and naps. Oh, the naps! 
I joined the gym too, a good way to kick off Summer. I am writing this whilst a bath is running, I am using the most gorgeous yellow bath bomb. I have been using quite a few bath bombs whilst being home, I might do a blog post rating and recommending some. 
I am not sure what I am going to do when I am not working over Summer so I have created a Summer goals list, something to complete and work towards and make sure I don't just waste Summer.
Summer goals:

  • Read at least 15 books
  • Socialise more (this is important because I have a habit of playing sims all day)
  • Gym 3-4 times a week
  • Cook more (pot noodles don't count)
  • Finish Glee
  • Finish writing memoir
I didn't want to set too many, but I feel like I have created a chilled list. Nothing in the list is unrealistic, it includes everything I enjoy doing. I am really looking forward to spending my first Summer in Brighton. I am hoping to start reading the books for the third year, but we will see...
What are some of your Summer goals?

2/3

Thursday, 6 June 2019

I have lived in Brighton for over a year now, and sometimes I forget just what a beautiful city it is. Life gets on top of me and I feel trapped, and all it takes it to resee the city. Venture out and find beautiful things.

A couple of weeks ago I explored The Laines with my friend Nina, she has her own blog go check it out

(www.nouw.com/niinahirvonen) and I fell back in love with Brighton. After having a coffee in The Laines we went and explored Snoopers Paradise. A place that holds the most bizarre things. The weather was crap but that Brighton vibe was buzzing through the streets, there is something about this seaside town that can just uplift you.
I really enjoyed messing around and taking all sorts of photographs. There were so many interesting things, from all kinds of sunglasses to old photographs and toys from many years ago. Here are the photos I had taken.
This is one of my favourite photos, I love the compass necklace and the dress. I used a filter to make it dark and brings out the red, I feel like I will definitely be writing poetry inspired by this photo.

 I am not sure what I love the most about this photo, the necklace or the old style books below the stand. Snooper's paradise is so aesthetically pleasing, there is something new and cool in every nook and cranny.



I adore this photo because of the serious Alice feels. You can only see a singular page in this photo but along the wall hands pages from Alice in Wonderland. This huge piece hands over the stairs and it is just stunning.

From this little trip in Brighton I learned that your soul needs freedom, take a day out of mundane things and explore. Enjoy life for what it is, I think we all need that reminder from time to time.

I will be posting some of my own writing, poetry and prose in the next couple of weeks. Inspired by some of these photos as well as other mediums. I cannot wait for you guys to see some of the things I have been working on.

We are back to updating regularly, I know I was awol for a while but I have been planning blog posts and basically getting my shit together! Thank you for reading.


A question I want you to think about, what makes your soul happy?

Snoopers Paradise

Tuesday, 19 March 2019

As a student almost everything is expensive. Food, travel and just basic living. My hometown is over 300 miles up the country and my University is the bottom of the country. To get to A to B I use the not so classy transportation of Megabus. It’s a  long ass journey but it’s cheap and usually a pretty easy journey. Unless there is a few individuals on board that just piss you off immediately! This is a list of people you may come across on your journey on a megabus!

1) The one having a phone call out loud! Not only are they shouting down the phone, before 10am may I add, but also has their conversation on loud speaker. So two people shouting and one isn’t even on the bus! Did I mention it usually goes on for the majority of the journey?

2) Can’t type their conversation person, similar to the one before but only they sit beside you at Wake Field and voice notes all of their friends until Sheffield! 

3) Constant Pee Person, I always make the stupid mistake of sitting near the door in the middle which is also where the toilet is located but also one of the few charging ports on board. On a long journey you can’t help but notice people going to the toilet, or one person going at least 9 times during the one journey. Not judging just worried for you hun.

4) The idiot. On my last journey home the driver was forced to stop the bus and couldn’t continue the journey for a while... all because some idiot decided it would be a good idea to smoke in the toilet. Brilliant, it’s not as if the bus was already two hours behind on this journey already. Thanks for that. 

5) Music for all. I’m not talking loud earphones or the driving having the radio on because that’s chill. You blast those earphones but please don’t play the music on your phone out loud. We aren’t thirteen nor are we in a local park. We are adults on a bus, please remember that. You’re not the megabus DJ and and quite frankly your music taste is a little crap and disturbing. I kind of want to sleep through the journey not rave with a headache. 

6) Smelly food person. I understand you need to eat trust me I wanted to bring a McDonalds on board too but I decided to have consideration for all of the other passengers on board. After all, no one wants to be on a stinky bus for 9 hours. Clearly I’m the only person with this consideration, great.  I also feel like if I tried to do this  the one time, everyone would probably hate me. 

7) Clueless person. This person I guess is somewhat helpless but you’re also helpless and can’t actually help this person. Yet the clueless person continues to ask you when the bus is coming or how long until we get to this place and the thing is I’m not the driver of the bus I have no clue what is going on either. I don’t know why the drivers have been switched, I don’t know when we are going to Leeds. I’ve never stopped in Leeds my stop is Newcastle, the last stop. Please leave me alone and ask the driver who has more of a clue that the both of us. 


Fully aware this was more of a rant type of post but trust me it was needed! I meet all of these type of people every time I get on a long journey. There are probably a lot more, and I’m sure I’ll come across many more people who annoy me. I will be getting another Megabus coach in July and then again in September. Maybe there will be a Coach People 2.0.  Have you come across any annoying people on a coach? Should I do more of these? For example ‘The types of people you find in an airport?’ I work in an airport and have been for a week and trust me I can go on forever about those types of people! 


Coach People

Monday, 11 June 2018

My first year at University has almost come to an end. Three days away from my last presentation and then that's it until October. I have to say, University is not what I thought it was going to be. If I had to describe my overall experience so far in one word,  it would have to be; bizarre. Truth be told it was not what I thought it would be like. It is such weird but wonderful place. I've been a drunken mess on several occasions, I've lost count of the number of times I've embarrassed myself. I survived, not just the social side but the educational side too. Despite being told the majority of the things you've learned up until this point is useless... Like any institution, you get the good lecturers, the great lecturers and the ones where you may as well teach yourself the course. I've found that majority of the modules have been pretty good, and enjoyable. Others, not soo much but what can you do? You win some you lose some. Granted this took me a while to grasp, tried to stop hating a certain module and just gave up completely and did everything myself. 



My first year? Honestly, it's been emotional, many kitchen floor dramas my own and my friends'. It's been a good year, I don't regret a thing. You get used to the homesickness, it hits you here and there but if you're busy (or mask your feelings by naps) you will be fine. I feel like this year has been a mess, like a complete mess of wtf is going on? 
I am looking forward to the year ahead, moving into a proper house with the girls. Doing modules I am actually interested in. I feel like Uni gets better with time, I can't imagine what mad things will occur in the upcoming years.
University has introduced me to so many amazing people, granted I think I met a lot of them drunk and now I can't even remember their names. I met the four girls I will be living with next year, they're crazy and unique, I can't wait to spend the next couple years with you weirdos.  The people on my course are gold, such creative people who are just wonderful.
I have to say the thing I am most proud of with Uni (besides passing) is that despite being offered ket a few times I haven't given in. I am not judging those who do, like have a blast (be careful) I just didn't want to get into that, and I haven't! HOORAY TO SAFE STUDYING! This time next week I'll be back home in Newcastle, ready to spend Summer working and reading!

Almost Done

Monday, 28 May 2018

Like every other Tattoo I have done I blog about it! Naturally, here they are.  Today I got two tattoos, at the North Road Tattoo parlour in Brighton. I highly recommend, the studio is clean and looks pretty cool. The tattooist was such a lovely gentleman. And the other colloeague who did my friend's tattoo was also just as lovely! As you know if you've got a tattoo the experience is always much more pleasant if the people who work there are talkative and just genuinely people, which these people were.

A friend and I booked our tattoos together and we were both so excited about getting our tattoos today. So if you haven't seen already on my Instagram here is one of my new tattoos. My second Harry Potter tattoo. The Slytherin tie mine and the Gryffindor tie is my friend Tiana's tattoo. Both of us absolutely adore Harry Potter!


My second Tattoo is a little one.  I didn't share this one on my Instagram so it is an exclusive I guess for my blog. It's something fun, a memory. This being my first year in University, and my first time moving away from home. I got the number 4. The flat I live in for Univerity is Flat 4.  I know it's silly but why not? Next year it happens that we move into a house that is number 44. So Next year I will be adding another 4 but in pink because it's an all-girls house. Plus, it would look pretty cool.










Two Tattoos!

Wednesday, 18 April 2018

Last night I went to see Brighton Rock performed at the Theatre Royal in Brighton. A lecturer offered us free tickets a week or so before, and at this point, I was really eager to go see a performance in Brighton. This seemed like a good opportunity, it's free and a productive way to spend my evening. Plus, I could enjoy it with my peers who also love theatre. It was the most English Student thing ever, but it was a blast.

Before the performance I pretty much went not knowing what to expect, I had seen that there was a film version on Netflix but I have yet to watch that. Afterward, I found out that Brighton Rock is also a book, which I am very looking forward to reading soon!

Immediately I was engaged, the actors and actresses were amazing. Their roles were so strong and enticing. There was never a second where my mind wandered elsewhere. The characters were complex and very intriguing. No two characters were the same, they were individual. I'm not exactly sure of what I was expecting but I was not expecting it to be about crime and gangs.

I think my favourite part of the play was the stage layout. It was made up of this metal frame that could be moved, like stairs and like an arch that was represented as Brighton Pier. It was insane, the use of the stairs was brilliant, especially to signify the passion between two characters. The stage layout allowed the production to show several things happening at once. I loved this, from the beginning we have a character talking out and what looks like from above, the character Pinky answering her almost. She introducing her thoughts about what makes good and bad and he explaining what will unfold. I loved this, it was just brilliant to watch. I was hooked immediately.

Another element of the performance I enjoyed was that is was somewhat. Like it wasn't a musical but there were parts that were sung and I was living for it. It wasn't full-on musical but it was amazing to see that there was a song or two performed.

The storyline was interesting and complex. I found it easy to follow but it also had my thoughts racing too, on the edge of my seat. The performance was 2 and a half hours, which by the end I did feel a little restless but that is probably because I had been in Uni since half 10 and had been seating down working for the majority of the day.

I feel like you know a play is good when you come away wanting more, like wanting to read the book and watch the film and see just how the theatre production was adapted from the original. I think that will be interesting to explore when I read the novel. I will leave the post here, I don't want to give too much away but I would recommend watching!

Brighton Rock

Wednesday, 7 March 2018

Tomorrow I head back to Brighton, it’s been a marvellous three weeks at home but I have to say: I’ve missed the Uni life! 

Today is my Niece’s fourth birthday, I couldn’t miss it for the world hence why I’m going tomorrow. My last week at home has been wonderful and bizarre. I’ve seen my best friends, had some valuable bonding time with my family, got an amazing new tattoo, spend lots of time with my double bed before our departure, and today my sister and niece talked me into dying my hair. 


 
I’m in love with my tattoo, my tattooist Demi Patten is so talented! It’s getting finished at the end of the month, colour added as well as getting another new tattoo! Janaury is looking like a good month! 

The hair dye situation, it was supposed to be just the underneath but it messed up. From what should have been underneath has leaked into my whole hair. I was freaking out at first but I’m warming to it.


No doubt I will change it in a couple weeks and go back to my original hair colour brown! 

Loved spending the day with my niece, I can’t believe she’s four. Four years she has been my little best friend, we wind each other up and make each other laugh like their is no tomorrow. 



She dressed up as Moana today and we sang along to the soundtrack and just had an amazing day. She has her birthday party tomorrow with all her little nursery friends and I’ll be on the train back to Brighton...


Last Week at Home

Friday, 5 January 2018

I have returned back up North! Last week I left Brighton to go home for Christmas, and I could not be happier. I love University, and my flatmates are the most incredible people but boy, have I missed home! After being away for three months there was no better feeling than cuddling (and sobbing ) my dear mother. Nothing beats a hug from your mam.

Naturally, in order to get to Newcastle, I had to travel to London first. The little part I got to see is beautiful at Christmas, very different from what I saw three months ago upon my arrival. It was very festive, which made me even eager to be home with my family. Three trains later I arrived in Newcastle.

The first two trains were somewhat unpleasant, just busy. It was quite soothing the train from Kingscross, the sound of other geordies picked up my mood.

I love my flatmates but it can be quite overpowering being surrounded by southerners all the time. Especially since they cannot understand me half the time. Whilst being at Brighton there has been quite a few communication issues, here a couple.

1) During freshers, a drunk time for many, I offered a flatmate a can of Dark Fruits, in which I got the response 'why would he want dog food?' - funny but frustrating.

2) I had a job interview, you know how it is with money when you're a student, even if you're not it's that time of year. So my potential employer asks me the usual questions and one being 'what do you do for hobbies' my response being my usual one, I like to write and read- I've had a poem published. He looked at me horrified and responded 'what, you've published porn??' not only was I howling but we were both embarrassed. Once I corrected him, we had a bit banter about it. But,it would be my luck for porn to come up in an interview.

I have been home just a little over a week, my first proper day back I went out to explore. Granted, this wasn't on purpose. I came home from Uni early due to an orthodontics appointment which I had on my phone for half 10 the next morning. I was wrong, it wasn't until half 3 but I didn't find this out until I was already in town.  Going down Brighton definitely has made me appreciate my hometown more, I am embracing my inner commoner. I walked down streets with ease, which in all honesty I haven't done in Brighton yet- mainly because I still have to use Google Maps to get everywhere. With Newcastle it is home, I know it like the back of my hand. No maps needed, no worry just home.

I love Newcastle at Christmas. The stalls are up near monument, foods from different continents fill the air and the busy vibes just make you feel home. Plus, the Christmas shop opens. The shop that pretty much stays closed all year and then when December hits it's the most festive sight ever.

I loved being reunited with my family, my niece especially.  She hugged me so tight and I cried tears of happiness. I hate to be smushy but before Uni we hadn't really been apart since she was born. So, three months was difficult- I was unbelievably homesick but I managed. I love being able to take her to nursery again, putting her to bed and her distracting me with loads of little stories to escape falling asleep. I am back at work, it feels good to be back. I was worried  I had forgotten how to do bets but I had no worries. I am enjoying the familiarity.

I have to say, I do miss my flatmates. In Brighton they are my family, I'm lucky to have that dynamic. I am so close to the girls it is comforting. University is already altering me, my social life as well as the growth of knowledge. My wardrobe has had some changes too- I didn't know what a bralette was before, now I own quite a few! University is an amazing experience, weird but amazing. It is hard, no doubt about that- the workload as well as moving away from home. But, the hardest part is over.


Reunited with my doubled bed- single is shit! 



Home for Christmas

Wednesday, 20 December 2017

Pebbles

Rough, Rigged and Rocky- an expanse of sand or pebbles along a shore. Every beach I have ever walked along filled me with serene happiness. The pads of my feet meeting silk sand whilst my worries washed away with the waves. I had always loved beaches, most of my fond childhood memories were set at the beach-  being chased by seagulls laughing until tears were as defined as the sand that coated my chips. I haven’t walked along this beach for 5 years, to this day. Here I am, stepping onto cold pebbles that unnerve my soul. Each step like ice to my chest. The sea haunts me, its screams flickering harshly against the pier. The pier that taunts my nightmares and shattered my whole being.
Allow me to take you back, to the first time my life altered forever. Nine years ago, I fell in love. I had just graduated from University, I got a first in my degree. I was hopeful and ready for the world to unleash itself upon me. As a naive northern twenty-one-year-old, I assumed I had mapped my life out before me. I was ready to roar in the industry I had finished my degree in; business, ready to make millions and be the next self-made Sara Blakely- only without the restricting material- I left my hometown and went down south. To Brighton to be exact. I found a nice little one-bedroom apartment, almost on the seafront. I say almost because I can see the sea from my window, alongside a rubbish tip. But, nonetheless, the stench could not overpower my eagerness.
A professor from my degree put me in touch with a small-time business, who were eager to hire graduates. I attended an interview, smartly dressed with bravery on a broach and wisdom around my chest like a sachet. That day I did not get the job but I did get the number of the male assistant who followed the boss around. This is where life took me in a whirl, to pay rent I started working in a  bar. The office guy who gave me his number kept trying to make a date with me but I had always been too busy to make the time for him.
One night he wandered into the bar, I remember his face beaming at me to finally see me again- and it was purely an accident. I was still busy but every other night he would come back to the bar just to sit and talk to me. He was my distraction from the drunk men ogling at me and the abuse that was hailed at me often. It was two weeks into this when I finally agreed to let him take me on a date. I didn’t want anything acentric so we walked along these very pebbles eating fish and chips as the sun began to fall asleep. All of the most significant moments in our relationship took place on Brighton beach, it is where it all began. It is where it all ended.

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In the introduction week of University we were asked to write a 500 word piece of prose, we were allowed to write any genre as long as it was set in Brighton. So I came up with this little fiction piece,w hich essentially would be an opening chapter to a novel. 

500 Words of Prose

Tuesday, 24 October 2017

Aloha!!

As promised here is my Uni post! However, due to there being a lot of content and things to write about I have decided to section things. This way you aren't scrolling down forever plus I have limited free time due to studying. So this post will be about moving to University, how I'm coping and meeting my flatmates and what not- the basics and the beginning. I shall be doing a few Uni posts in the future about different topics such as: Making my room my own, Night Life, Lectures and Seminar tips and just how I am dealing with everything. I may even make Uni posts a weekly thing and my other content just whenever I feel like it. So, let's begin.

Newcastle Central Station
23rd of September I moved to Brighton. At 04:45AM I sobbed farewells to my family and set off down South. After 6 and a half hours of traveling,  a change over in London I arrived at Brighton station, feeling overwhelmed and excited to the core. This was the first time being in the city on my own. I had previously been here with my mother so it was bizarre to be lugging a case figuring out my next step.

I say lugging a case because that's all I came up with, a huge heavy ass case and a bulging backpack. I did this journey alone because for a long time I have had this need to be independent. I was sobbing on the train but decided to spend the majority of my train journey between small naps, drinking hot chocolate and reading a book.

I couldn't pack my entire 19 years of life into a single case so back home I packed everything and got everything I had missed delivered down to me- which has been mighty convenient. Plus I love that feeling of knowing you have a delivery on its way- extremely satisfying. My family is the best! Being so supportive and patient with me- thanks parents for sending my belongings down and surprises!


London was busy, like always. I love London but it's just so rushed. You never get the chance to absorb your surroundings. I was worried when I arrived in London, I had no clue where I was or where to go next. Google Maps- always the answer. To be fair, I was only at Kingross and needed to get to St Pancras International- it is literally around the corner. It was definitely a dumb moment on my part.

From Brighton station, I got into a taxi to my accommodation campus Varley Park. The driver was lovely and advised me on taxi services and student nights out. He essentially was the first person I talked to upon my arrival.

As soon as I had arrived I got my keys, this was very exciting. Into the flat I moved, I met my housemates one by one at various times through the day. I was worried about this-  but I really shouldn't have been. Almost two weeks later and I feel like I have known my 4 flatmates my entire life- they're funny, crazy, slightly alcoholic but most of all the best flatmates  I could have ever asked for. However, we do have some communication issues. Mainly because I am a northerner. There has been a couple of times where what I've said has been mistaken for something else. Last week I offered a flatmate a can of dark fruits- they thought I said dog food. I still laugh at this. The other day, I got a delivery with my hulk (teddy) and I've been excited about it the whole week. I showed him to my flatmates in our group chat, and well. For the entire week, they thought I'd been saying 'hug' they just assumed I named a stuffed animal hug.

I love my room, I am excited to show you guys the transformation.


The first week was crazy, nights out, attending introductory lectures. I think the first week was hard on me, by the weekend I had homesickness swelling in my heart. Every time I FaceTime a family member I come off the phone almost sobbing. I miss Kara, my niece, especially. I miss taking her to nursery, and picking her up. Reading her books before sleeping, and having lazy days watching Moana and Trollz on repeat. I miss her waking me up every morning, just because she wanted to see me. It's strange going from seeing someone every day to literally not being able to see them until December.

I am not as homesick now, but little things make me miss home. Like the other night, we had crumble for pudding, and it instantly made me miss my dad. He makes the best homemade rhubarb crumble known to mankind. Sleeping is still uneasy on me, the first night I slept so much but that was due to exhaustion of traveling and since it's been a few hours here and there. I sleep better through the day than at night. My wonderful mother has sent up my hulk, you will probably see him in the photographs on the next Uni post. He smells of home and he's good to cuddle. My mother also sent up a huge wool blanket she knitted, especially for Uni. I love it so much, I think I would be a mess and even more homesick without it. A little piece of home with me.

I have always known I wanted to move away from home, and I have always anticipated it as this great big adventure, which it is, I just didn't give it a thought about how much I'd actually miss home. I don't regret my decisions, I am excited about the future and I love University. I just think it will take some time to get used to.

Until next week!

The Move ((University))

Saturday, 7 October 2017

As you may have read in my little prose earlier - I was petrified of not getting into University. I had self-doubt up to my eyeballs.  I managed to get to sleep after about half 3ish. I woke up at seven-ish. And by ten past I had the answer blaring at me through the screen of my phone.

I got into my first choice - The University of Brighton. I am still ecstatic. They emailed me first thing this morning telling me I was accepted. This made going in for my results much easier, a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I still cannot believe it, I get to call Brighton my home for the next 3/4 years- that is taking sometime to process. I am so thankful and proud of the support around me, my friends and family mean the absolute world to me. Not only am I proud of myself, for actually doing something I believe in and chasing my dream, I am proud of my friends for chasing theirs.  A Levels were hell, break downs and endless amount of work but we got each other through it. Even if it was sharing a passion for hatred towards a lesson or little positive compliments that would make you smile after a rough day. Moving to Newcastle Sixth Form College was one of the best decisions I have ever made. I am so thankful and grateful for everything.

It's such a relief knowing I can enjoy the rest of my Summer without the worry of not knowing my place. I am excited about the future. I'm sure moving so far away from home will come with many challenges but there is nothing that I am not willing to overcome. A Levels have taught me a few things, other than media institutions, camera angles and the use of caesura.  I have learned that if you don't do something right the first time, try again until you do. I am glad I didn't give up in September of 2015; when my old sixth form told me I shouldn't  pursue English. I have learned that independence is an important quality. How good it is to have people around you, and be able to depend on - it is just as important to be able to depend on yourself and have faith in your decisions. I have also learned that it is important to let go, this I didn't learn directly through lessons but more so through personal events that happened towards the end of my time at NSFC. Not everything needs a reaction, but also it is okay to feel everything and nothing. It's okay to not have your shit together, you should have to do what is best for you - even if it makes no sense to anyone else.

I want to thank especially Olivia - you are my actual rock, and I am glad I met you, thanks to NSFC I have a friend for life! Christine and Paul - you two are the life of NSFC, your support has meant the world to me and I cannot thank you enough for making the experience of A Levels better, good luck for the future - Christine with your amazing bodycombat teaching, and Paul with bringing a new life into the world, you will be an amazing parent! Carolyn, the wittiest woman I've ever met 'throwing shade' every lesson, never failing to make every lesson the best. Angela, last but not least! Thank you for believing in me and my writing, you encouraged me to write more and inspired me to put my work out into the world- and I cannot thank you enough! Good luck with your writing!

I am so grateful and relieved that A Levels are over, a chapter of my life has come to a close and I am ready for the next - whatever it may be.


#SUMMERBLOGGIN



Next Chapter

Thursday, 17 August 2017

This Summer has been weird. So far, at least. I have been anticipating results day which is exactly 5 days away. It is difficult to enjoy your time off when you have the nagging worried feeling in your chest that you may have messed up your chance to go to Uni in September - fun right? Despite my wonderful friends and family showing me their endless support I of course still have plenty of doubt.
At the beginning of Summer, I roughly had a plan of things to do, which is still coming along nicely. I have been to gigs, nights out, seeing friends, even did a photo shoot (will post pictures later in the week) and I have been writing a novel. It is early days but I am quite happy with how it is coming along nicely-  I will post more details in the months to come. I have also been obsessed with Celebrity Big  Brother this year. I never watch it but as soon as I heard that Trisha Paytas (my favourite Youtuber) was going on, I have not missed an episode. I am living for her and the show.
Despite, results day dawning upon us next week I am still excited for the weeks ahead. My last shift at work is in 17 days and in 18 days I am away to Spain for two weeks. And then, hopefully, results day goes well I will be moving to Brighton in 43 days.
This Summer me and my best friend Olivia have put down a deposit for a holiday next Summer - eleven days in EGPYT!! Excited would be an understatement. I will be blogging both on my holidays Spain this year and Egypt next year, may even do some video stuff - so keep eyes peeled. 
There will be more Uni content after results day so hacks and advice and naturally my experiences to come! 


#SUMMERBLOGGIN

Summer Update

Friday, 11 August 2017



I am on the coach back to Newcastle, feeling very melancholic about having to leave Brighton. This morning we got up early and had breakfast, and then we went out for a walk along the pebbled beach. It was lovely, I felt so in sync with everything around me. I only hope to have many more walks along the pebbled beach in the future. Of course, we had to go back on the pier. It was fun, I also purchased a pair of pants from a man working from a red phone box, the pants are a mothers day gift for my mother. So, goodbye Brightion, till September!

It is also my 19th today - I am glad I got to spend some of it in Brighton!!

Brighton day 3

Thursday, 23 March 2017

This morning we woke up a wet and rainy Brighton, this did not dampen my mood or eagerness for the day ahead. Today was not only my second day in  Brighton but the main purpose of my trip; the applicant day for the university. So, I was eager. Got ready and what not in the hotel and set out for the station.  The rain did throw a little curve, so we got the bus. To the station. To the side is the view from a Brighton bus stand. 

Before heading to the University, we stopped for a coffee. The place was beautiful, as you can see in the picture below. It felt so picturesque, I adored the many photographs placed around the little cafe. We mainly entered the place for shelter from the rain as we had time to kill before visiting the university. 
Naturally, we had to check out some vintage shops. I got a few Tye Dye Tshirts that I am very in love with. They're beautiful, and I think I can see myself pretty much spending all my money in the future in vintage shops in Brighton, and I already know I will not regret a single purchase. We grabbed a coffee from the station before getting on the station to Falmer, the University Campus my course is at.
The weather was still gloom but I was definitely still over the moon. Below is the picture of part of the University. The girl in front I met, and turns out we are doing the same course in Septemeber, she was one of three people I made friends with on the trip. I fell in love with the University, the grounds were cool, I really liked the accomodation, I can see myself being really happy there. The lecturers of my course were enthusaistic and it was clear they love that they do, which for me is really important. There is nothing worse than having a teacher who hates their job and doesn't put as much as they can into their lessons. I liked the course content, and I am so excited that I have firmed The University of Brighton. It has motivated me to pick up my work ethic, hopefully today isn't the last day my feet meet the grounds of the University.

After the splendid day at the University, we of course went for a cuppa and cake in the lanes before retreating to our hotel room for a little nap. Whilst we were chatting and enjoying the Brighton air, I noticed students drinking coffee at their laptops chatting to each other, and I felt so excited. That could be me!
After our stop at the cafe we further explored the lanes and then we retreated to our hotel. We had naps and freshened up and then head out to the pier. Where I think I spent the majority of my time so far. The Pier is gorgeous though.

After a lovely time taking many pictures, playing on lots of amusements we decided to go for food to a place opposite.  We had drinks in here last night, and tonight we decided to dine as well as drinks.

And now I am trying to force myself to stay away to finish this blog post. It's been such a good trip, I do not want to return back to Newcastle tomorrow.

Brighton Day 2

Wednesday, 22 March 2017