Thighs and Freckles

Friday 1 April 2016

I like to believe I know my body better than anybody else, I've looked at it the most it is mine and I can't ever change that. I know my flaws and favourite parts.  And well I want to dicuss some of my flaws well things that were once my flaws or are transitioning from the flaw mentality set up I have going. Also my family and friends have been so supportive and I love them dearly for always having my back and picking me up.
Firstly let's discuss the first subject of the title thighs. For as long as I remember I have always had a problem with my thighs, for years I've thought they were too fat and should always be hidden. I wouldn't let myself wear shorts or be seen in anything that was revealing. So my go to is always Jeans (sometimes leggings not see through I am somewhat classy) and along with my thighs I hated my arms. I Always covered up and anyone who knows me knows I practically live in Hoodies and Jeans, rarely ever have my arms on show more so my thighs.
Until recently, yesterday I bought a whole new outfit. And today I tried it on and and even took some pictures, and well here it is.
Yes arms and thighs on show. I am self conscious and having that photo online makes me incredibly nervous but I like the photo and it makes me feel somewhat good. And I know when I wear it to the cinema on Tuesday I will have to constantly remind myself I am confident and beautiful and can rock this and that short dungarees aren't just for thinner girls.
I am trying to become more comfortable in my body I am tired of hiding myself afraid of judgment. Well that ends now, whatever I wear is my choice and it isn't effecting anyone and if it that is their problem not mine. In order to love myself I need to put myself out there, I need to flaunt (what I call them) my flaws and love them, in order to move forward in my self love journey I need to step out of my comfort zone. So I am showing my arms and thighs in that picture and do you know what? The outfit is cute and I believe I look really good and I can't wait to wear this out, I am confident, beautiful and I fucking rock this outfit!
Now onto the second subject Freckles. I can't get rid of them, and well I'm going to be honest. When I take selfies my phone has a beauty face thing built which can be adjusted and so I've always used that to make my face smoother and freckle free until recently. I've been loving my freckles and turning off the beauty face I've been embracing them, I've been posting selfies on Instagram where they look bold on me. I never knew Freckles were so beautiful, they're little dots of cuteness.  They make me feel so fresh and naturalistic, don't get me wrong I love when I have makeup on and I'm all dolled up, but it feels good taking the steps to self acceptance without feeling like I need to alter things.
Maybe becoming an adult has taught me a few things. Something has clicked inside of my head. I have a new mindset I need to think of me and love me, whatever anyone else thinks is their business,just because someone else may think big isn't good doesn't mean I have to believe that.
As long as I'm not hurting anyone or myself then who cares what I'm wearing or looking like? I'm trying to be happy with myself and work on self acceptance and embrace my features and it's exciting and scary and I'm ready. My recent achievement on liking my body is beginning with my freckles and thighs, what are you beginning?

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